Life’s Priming

According to Chat GPT , 3.5 version (don't get mad at me if it's not completely right shi),priming is a psychological phenomenon where exposure to a stimulus influences a blah blah blah. It basically says one thing can affect how you think or react to something else even if those things aren't directly connected.

Subconscious Priming

Here our thoughts, feelings, and behaviors are influenced without our awareness. In Deon's voice "Scaredd of Priming". Me too Deon, me too.

Thoughts

Y'all realllly wanna know what I've been thinking 👀. Too bad imma tell ya.

• I've been thinking about how the future Dean of the College of Education and Behavior Sciences at Tech can possibly be a Black woman. Representation matters but this one hitting different.

• I've been thinking how a Howard alum dm me to seek info about my PhD program. She basically wanted to know if it's do-able. As a woman who highly disliked reading and writing in undergrad, (humbly) if I'm doin it, girl you can do it too.

• I've been thinking about how Tyler Perry gave birth to so many Black people and he was just following God's word.

• I've been thinking how tf am I going to drive all around the south in a couple of days (pray for me). Because the main character in me feels like they standing in the trees just waiting for my car to break down.

• I've been thinking that my cohorts has totally made all this reading and work easier. This is at a 95 % interval, don't tell them.

• Lastly, you know how I said to leave what was in the past. It's so easy to do that with people but feelings, shi thats a test.

Feelins

It's easy to say "they in the past". Let them stalk your ig cause you know you know that they miss ya. My mom always says:

People don't forget how you made them feel.

As sometimes she is true, this hits in reverse too. Let's test it out : We don't forget how someone/ event made us feel. Yea, I felt that. Those events and feelings are primed in us. Sadly they show up in moments where maybe you don't even have a reason to feel that way. I argue a lot but shi sometimes I wish I wasn't right.

Behaviors

So what do we do Lita? Girl read my bio cause I STILL DON'T MF KNOW. Shoot this my first time talkin in third person on my blog. Just doin shi.

I might not be able to control the influences but I can control my behaviors. I can behave out of love, peace, self-worth and all that corny motivational stuff I post on IG (even when my influences aren't that). I probably just used priming to favor my blog that is really just becoming me just venting atp. But imma keep going ... as priming is a technique associated with unawareness , confusion of the influence is at the top of the Christmas tree ;). So I am left walking in the awareness I do have. Very much aware of who tf I am and all the other things I can't trace well I just say this when I wake up and make my omelette (actually looking pretty good):

God, I trust you even when I can't trace you

Xoxo, a girl who has had a WEEK , behaving like the ... actually I don't even need to hype it (you know better than I do ;) ), but how the og's know the number: 14th week PhD student